Yes, this trip had been held again at Langkawi Island because the island is so near to my university, just 5 minutes car trip to the jetty and 40 minutes boat journey to the place that’s free of duty charge from the government. It was a spontaneous decision for us to go there because Thursday ain’t gonna have any class for us while we were free on the 1st week of the semester. On Wednesday, eleven participles from industrial electronic and system electronic courses gather at the jetty at 2pm, including two couples and one new member who just join in the group. Exactly same as the previous alcoholic beach party, we separate into two groups when we reached the island. The 1st group will be responsible to search for hotel at ‘Pantai Cenang’ and the 2nd group will be responsible to choose the best ‘drinks’ for everyone. Our motives were to drink as much as we could and get so drunk that day because we’d paid for it, 100 bucks each. And I really drink a lot that night, like I was lived to drink but I didn’t get drunk at the end of the night. We brought three different types of alcohol drinks; one of them was red wine. 3 members throw up after the drink compared with last time only 2 people. It was a total chaos after everybody got drunk. I can’t believe what just happened. Haiz… the story starts here, last semester there was a girl, my coursemate who falls for me because we were good friend in class. Ever since she confessed her love to me and we didn’t work out as a couple, there’s a gap between us. After that incident, I start to back off myself a little bit because I don’t want to hurt her or cause any pain to her anymore. I want everything to be fine between us and then we can be friends again. And yea, she’d recover after the semester break and she told me that she’d got over the feeling that she had for me and she’s ready to be friend with me again. But however that night really screw everything up. After she gets all drunk, and she expressed all her emotional in front of us. It was kind of ugly. She starts to get so upset, jealous and then cried out her heart loud. To be honest, I was totally helpless at that moment. I can’t do anything but to comfort her, keep asking her to clam down and stays focus on her emotions but it was no use. I tried my best to prevent her from doing or saying anything that will make her regret on next morning. On the trip, I can feel that she wasn’t feeling comfortable with the way another coursemate of us treating me. We were quite chatty and close to each other on the trip. Due to that reason I believe her emotional finally burst out uncontrollable. There was a part she stands so near to me when she got drunk. I felt so weird with the way she stared at me. Another friend of mine took over my place when I failed to control her emotions. Yes, of course I couldn’t control her emotions because I was the one who caused all this. And her friend knows that too. Damn it Jason, you’re really a jackass! Haiz… I just told myself not to involve in this relationship stuff now but I still did it again. It just won’t let me go. Like a predator keeps hunting my soul. That day before we start drinking, we went to the beach at the evening. Just like every tourists out there, we walk at the seaside… watch people playing banana boat, football, and all that, and we played the sea water too… everything went well and perfectly normal… we were having fun. But all the sudden, I got stung by a jellyfish. The pain was indescribable. It was like thousands of needles stung into my skin and it feel like my hand was plainly burned by fire. The ‘love’ shock from the jellyfish really kills my nerves. It causes my right hand to feel total numb, chest pain, back pain, stomach pain and having difficulty to breath. In fact, my whole body starts to feel pain like I had just punched by someone at the body. Freaking jellyfish! I can’t stop myself from cursing it the moment I got stung! Haha! I immediately rushed to the emergency room after I took my shower. Given the opportunities to skip the entire patients at the hospital (they were waiting their numbers to be called), Doc gives me the medication I needed. Few types of drugs had been injected into my body and I felt plain dizzy like my head was spinning at 20 revolutions per minutes. Doc said I was lucky to come in on time because my heart bit was slower than usual one. I don’t know what he meant by that. Isn’t my situation really that critical than I can imagine?! After an hour later, I check out myself from the hospital and continue my adventure with my friends. I still feel very suffer after the drugs and stings but everyone was waiting me for dinner and it was about 9.30pm by the time. Everyone was starving, so much! So I hide all my pain from them and rock the night though. Doc said I must drink more alcohol drinks because it can help me to neutralize all the poison in my body and make me feel a lot better, so I’d what doc said. :P Haha! (It was a prank okay!) I wasn’t hungry that night. I lost all my appetite due to that ‘jellyfish crash’.
If you ever ask me whether I’d deserve all this, I’ll tell you I do. I’d deserve every sting from that unknown jellyfish. (I didn’t get to know its name and phone number when we met) Maybe this jellyfish stung me for right. Maybe because God knows all these chaos is going to happen tonight so he punished me in advance for being such a jackass to make a girl cried. Thanks jellyfish, thanks god, I’m sorry; I know I had done lots of bad things nowadays… On the next morning, I woke up early like the last trip I do. I was planning to go for a walk at the beach (alone) but despite of that, I did something good to others. Another coursemate of mine, love issue again, who was so upset sitting on the floor crying when I walk pass through her. So I sincerely ask her to go for a walk with me and I gave her some break-up-motivation talk. Hope she’ll feel normal soon. After the trip, my body felt so weak. I’m now constantly taking my medicines and I hope I’ll fully recover in no time. Afraid of any side effects that the jellyfish might give me. Haiz… when I was at my life and dead moment, I didn’t call to anyone that was close to me including my family. I clearly know that neither of them can help me that moment so I save up some calls to prevent any unnecessary worries. Despite of that, I texted with my imaginary friend… Mei Mei… I updated her with all the situations I’m in and everything while she shows her concern by replying my message. She helps me to get through all this. She helps me to feel safe and secure. I didn’t feel like I’m facing the problem all by myself because I really trusted her. She's a future doc. Haha! Thanks mei… If I really die that night you’ll be the last person I contacted. I actually chat with the doc about you when he gives me medication ler... Haha! Thanks god I’m still able to make jokes here. Thanks god for sparing my little life. Now I’m backed to hostel and its time for me to show some concern on my studies. Hope I’ll be writing about the improvement in my studies next time I’d blog. I’ll write again…
P.S. Aim for the moon, aim high.
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