Kiss the rain

My life used to be a perfect one. I have my girl friend with me, I have great friends, and my studies were always in high achievement. I enjoy playing all sorts of sports like swimming, badminton and all that. When I was down or feeling bored, I’ll lead my guitar to play me comfortable music to relax my mind and drag me out from reality and help me stop thinking for a few minutes of my life. I like taekwondo because I had started learning it since I was in primary four but that’s an old time story of mine already. Yea, I’m a black belt and I enjoy sparing. Blah blah blah.. And I do like to read story books when it comes to my leisure time. I mostly enjoy Cecelia’s type of literary. I have lot of her collections. :P Sound like I’m a very noble person huh! Haha! Oh, 4gotten to introduce my family members here. I have a lovely warm family. My only brother who was just two years younger than me undertaking mass communication in ECU University in Aus, my parents whom always support my current life give my everything I need, and never negelect Romeo the house dog. (There will be lot of story of him because he’s so dearly to me and also to my family) However, at the age of 21 years old, things had been quite different now. I shall start my story a year ago with me ‘grieving’ over my break up with my 1st love. Indeed, hard time for me. I don’t even know how to spend my semester break that time so I went to work as a waiter at Neway Company. Then I met a sweet girl in my university, named Angeline*. She was a fine girl with excellant language, loves to read story books, share every story of her life with me, In other words, we were quite open with each other. I can still remember the last time I brought her souvenir (my favourite chocolate) when I got back from a vacation in Langkawi Island; and she gave me some expensive body shampoo that she dun wants and ‘ba kua’ that her senior gave her. I really smell like a green apple each time I use the body shampoo. At first I hate that smell so much but I was kind of getting over with it at the end of the day. We share all the songs and movies that we like. We text each other day and night doesnt matter anyone of us were asleep or not. Having someone to bug at anytime is the nicest and sweetest things a person can get in their life especially with those who just broke up in a relationship. I cherish every moment we had although we never actually meet and look into each other eyes before. But then the friendship didn’t last for long, we have language and religion problems according to what I feel. Although I don’t mind all of that stuff but not her. I had two major arguments with her and the 2nd one was few days ago. I don't think we’ll back together this time. Then there’s her best friend Inessa* who I’m close with too when I put an end with Angeline*. She told me that Inessa* was kind of into me now so I might as well give her the attention she wants, or give it a try maybe she’ll be the soul mate I’m always looking for. Things went well for d 1st week, she share everything with me, and vice versa. We spend our quality time together but till today, she changed her attitude towards me after I sent her one of my picture that I posting handsomely at Broga Hill with some flirty text message in it. She asked me not to keep in touch with her FOREVER because I’m very annoying to her. After listened to all the explanation from me, she just chose a few correct responds from her little words file to reply me. I don’t think I had done anything wrong here. Now I have been deeply hurt my two girls whom are best friend. I had learnt my valuable lessons in life now. I quit my holiday’s job working as a promoter at AEON selling kid’s clothes (KIKO) today due to a serious argument I had with the head of the guard. There’s no reason I state the whole story down here but I don’t know why I’m so brave to stand up for myself that time. And I don’t understand why I even start this damn stupid fucking boring promoter job. Honestly, I know the reason. I start the job when I broke up with Angeline*, I thought I can use this opportunity to reduce the pain in my heart. I quit the job because I hate it so much and that time I just broke with Inessa* so I grab this opportunity to pick a fight with the guard and stop working too. Lame excuse isn’t it but that’s wholly true. Now I’m officially unhooked from both of them. I guess that’s the best ending for everyone of us. I don’t belong to either one of them. (Hope this time I’m not wrong) I think it’s the best time for me to back to myself now. My studies has been dropping tremendously, I’m suck in dealing with friendship, I’m a quitter at work, I’m lack of confident and trust in myself and I'm still not sure anymore worst thing is coming to me to make my life more miserable or not. Right now, I’m at d lowest point of my life. Everything doesn’t go smoothly for me. And I start to wonder am I going to live my life like this now and forever?! So, you had known me and what my current life is like. Most people will start their blog with great introduction, with positive thinking, and all stuff like that but not me. I think I’m going to screw my 1st blog for once. Maybe one day when I looked back, I know I've been in this kind of moment in my life before. Remind me that I’m not always that perfect and awesome all the time. Haha! It’s for you XXX, I shall start cherish every moment of my life by writing it down here, I’ll do my best to kept my promise. Not break it until the end of my life.

P.S. it takes long time2 build up trust, but it can be crush overnight; plunge back to reality Jason!