just Plainly Envy

-你不知道的事-

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事


Because I don't have my own love now, I tended to feel envy to other's love story and the relationship they're into..

I'll easily get emotion to those disgusting love movies I watched. Specially when I watched them alone, my shamefully warm tears will just flow out from my eyes... Sometimes my heart just shuttered with the life I had now each time the movie ends...

However, at this particular point... I'd love this kind of feeling very much... It allows me to have those sour-sweet feeling back again, the feeling of love, the feeling that I once had before and now it'd long lost...

...

In the end of the day, I think I'm just plainly envy to those happy ending that I'm always chasing for..


That's all...

That must be the tear of joy I'd always dropped... That must be the tear of satisfaction that remarkably satisfied my soul...


Thanks to those disgusting but touching love movies that enhance me to be more human again. :)



P.S. Life is tough, but we're far more tougher then that!

(Happy 10.10.10 in my 10th post. ^^)