Comma

I think I had abandon my blog for a very long time already. It's time to put the all pass behind the comma, and start a new chapter of my life again. I always love watching "How I Met Your Mother" because it's simply meaningful to me. Somehow I just wish she's the one for me. I don't know how and I'm honestly not sure about it, but I'll try my very best to keep us happy everytime and hold each other hands as tidy as we can until who knows, we'll be spending the rest of our life together until eternity! Isn't that is what we're searching for after all these years..? God bless us as a happy and lovely soulmate.

P.S. Next time if I'm writing a post, it will be another good one!

Growing Up

There were things that I wanted to tell her. But now I know it would hurt her, so I buried them and let them hurt me instead... Even though it hurts, you're still my favourite pain...

I just don't know how to solve this 'tie' between us anymore. It seems like the harder I tried to untie the string, the massier it becomes.

I'm afraid. My heart tells me to let by gones by gones but my brain can't follow my heart's beats and stop thinking how unfair it's to me.

Emotions and chaos took place. We'd end up with another massive fight again. There's still no solution for this tie but I hope soon or later everything will be fine. I don't wanna carry this unspeakable 'tie' spending the rest of my life with my soulmate. God please bless the innocent us.

In nut shell, I guess I'm just a lousy person when it comes to untying a tied string.

P.S. It feel sick when you know that you need to let go but you can't because you're still waiting for the ImPOSSIBLE to happen.

Viva Forever

Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We'd only just begun

Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one

Today my dear listen to this song, and she cried..
My heart shattered again...
Helplessly watching her warm tears dropped one by one.
At that moment I just wish I could hold her tightly in my arms..

I wonder,
am I 'the One' that she's rearching for in her whole life..?
Why does she cry when this song was played...
Why can't I always keep her happy and cheerful...?

P.S. Happy 23rd Birthday to you Jason. You're one year old... (I'm afraid to grow up, because sometimes it seems like things will never feel this beautiful again...)

P.P.S. God please bless us with love and kindness...

You Are My Sunshine

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
So don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear, when I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
So don't take my sunshine away

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between
But now you've left me and love another
You have shattered all of my dreams.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

"did you finally heard my inner voice already, \(^o^)/"
"Love you with all my heart."

Back to Square One

来时欢喜去时悲

空在人间走一回

不如不来也不去

也无欢喜也无悲

Sigh... I wanted to go home... I wanted to leave this place as soon as possible... :( First time in my life I never thought of having someone to hate me so much! So much until that person'd blog about me, cursing me everyday I'm still alive and never wanted to solve the problems between us. I really don't know what had I done to deserve all this hatreds. Seriously I don't know and cannot understand at all.

That person had resulted me to have nightmares at night, having words that I can't utter and most importantly affecting my flawless life, causing countless pain to my love one.

"Do you ever know that my heart shattered each time I see you suffer...."

I feel so unfair and helpless on what had happened to us and all the energy and time we'd wasted on that person. For the time being, everyone who knows this should be thinking I'm the bad person now, I just don't know whether I'm gonna be fine with this situation or not. But I hope it would be, soon or later on.

Pity myself....

"I'm always there for you when you needed me dear. It hurts when you didn't notice my existance..."

P.S. In case you forgot who you are, turn around to the people who love you. They would remind how beautiful you are.

天天好天

记得那一年 那一段岁月
一个小小的家园 天天都怀念
一杯白开水 也可以很清甜
一碗热情汤面线 是一种思念
心若能放开一点 路就宽一些
财富和幸福之间 还有知足作界线
啦。。。
一天天 一年年
天天都是好天
不管天多高 路多远
祝福你快乐一万年
是晴天 是雨天
天天都是好天
知足常乐开心一年
我看见艳阳天

Always remind yourself of this song whenever you felt everything in life is difficult to you. Stay positively, and living our life can be quite easy and flawless sometimes.

To my beautiful goddess, it's a good sign that you had found me here. I would like to give you my warmest wish and regard, please make yourself comfortable here. Maybe you can try to consider yourself as my number one reader?! ^^ :P Haha!

Anyway welcome to my own private blog dear, I'm so glad to see you here. *wink* :) Love you so much.

P.S. A beauty heart, everything reflex beautifully. It's up to us to find beauty in the ugliest days.

You just can't care about everybody's opinion

Yes, everyone in my university knows about I'm currently having a girlfriend now. And it's sweet when some of my friends actually sent their best regards to me and I'm well aware of that I'm the luckiest person on earth, not to mention that I did have a tremendous sweet and beautiful girlfriend with me now...

The problem is that this few days, I'd received some of the 'bad joke' from my university friends. It makes me feel uncomfortable and sad because they're my only good friends here. The jokes are sort of like 'eh, today didn't go for dating with girlfriend?' as I'm well comfortable with myself staying at the hostel, 'so fast backed from dating already?' as I didn't went out for any date, 'didn't go to the class earlier to date before the lecture class starts?' before I'm preparing myself for classes, those are the some minor jokes that I'm able to look pass it because some people are just like to make fun of us and the things they'd said aren't meant anything. But today the most-pissed-me-off-joke that I'd received is 'we'll need to arrange a farewell party for all of us already, because our group of friends is fallen apart now...'.


.....


What the hell is all the words that came from these people means?! I don't think those are supposed to be funny when it's addressed to you! A lousy joke I should say. I'm sorry that I can't take any of these joke anymore because it's just over my limits of temptation, that's just too much of teasing for a single day! I don't think that I'd neglected any of my friends as we still enjoy our university life, do stuffs that we'd always do together, and always be there for them whenever they needed me, doesn't it good enough for being as a friend?

I know most poeple who said that were probably people who cares about me, and I love my girlfriend very much but can't anyone just let us live happily together and minimizes all the teasing stuffs? All my friends are important to me, so as my family! So stop treating me as if I'd changed to a different person and I'll be grateful to receive all the supports from you all, which I'm absolutely needed it now!

I just hope that one day that particular person will stop carrying on her irresponsible behaviour and beware of the her unethical action is actually slowly destroying herself and her friendship, and nevertheless indirectly hurting the person she'd cares about the most. I really feel sorry for her through the bottom of my heart but I wish that one day we'll be able to let bygones be bygones and starts our friendship again... By doing so, nobody will need to lose anyone in the future, doesn't it sounds better this way?

P.S. All emotion pain lasts for twelve minutes, anything longer than that is self-inflicted